Thirteen days to go..

Thirteen days to go until our very much awaited Boracay Escapade!

This year is gonna be a travel year for both me and my hubby. We’ve booked ourselves to 2 domestic and 1 international flights the last time Cebu Pacific was on Piso fare.

It’s way more expensive now even if the airlines were on seat sale. Thanks (not) to the fuel surcharge!  

But nevertheless, I’m super thrilled to go on a trip with him. I know we’ll rock it! Hahaha

I’ve been waiting for you, love :)

The song says it all. After all the heartaches in the past, here I am with the man that I’ve been praying for all my life. This may sound so cliche, but I have never been this content nor this happy until he came. Everyday is just so awesome because I spend it with the man who finds happiness in spending time with me. 

For the last 8 months, there were only about 4 days that we haven’t been together and that was when we were starting out. But now, the only time we’re not together is when he’s working or we’re sleeping. You might have noticed the ‘he’ right before the word working; so yes, I have quit my job 3 months ago and I haven’t started looking for one just yet. I’d probably start first week of Feb.  

So what do I do everyday?

Oh well, I wait for him to come home just like a housewife. LOL

But really, I just had to quit my job for VALID reasons which I might expound the next time I blog. For now, I think I’m gonna have to stop as he is now heading home. 

Cheerios!

IN LOVE LANG PO :)

Just got out of the shower and I’m feeling oh so fresh. 

Text war mode with my love. Looks like we still wouldn’t be able to sleep early huh. Nah, it’s okay. This is food for the heart. Hehe:)

Btw, I still haven’t thought of what to give him for our monthsary. Hmmmm..

Seriously, how am I going to surprise him with something when we are always together after work? Count Sundays please. 

Nah, please forgive me darling. I’ll just buy you that double body bread you’ve been jokingly ‘craving’ for the past few days. LOL

Anyway, time to hit the bed. -as DEMANDED by him. (Antok na daw kasi ako kanina. FINE FINE.)

I’m IN LOVE. Really IN LOVE. Hehe:)

Sweet Sunday

Good Morning!

It’s a great Sunday morning. Mom will be back later. Yey!! One week of having her away sucks. BIG TIME! I miss her sooo much already. But the long wait is almost over, she’ll be home hours from now.

I gotta buy her a welcome cake or cupcakes later after getting a massage with my love.

Btw, thanks for the chocolates loverboy. Don’t blame me if I’ve been gaining a lot of weight recently. Everyday is a food-tripping day with you. Hohum. 

Gosh, I sound so in love with my guy. It seems like we’ve only been together for weeks, huh? LOL 

Honestly, I am truly, madly, deeply in love with this guy I am with. We’ve been together for a couple of months already but my love for him grows each day. 

UPDATES

UPDATES:

I am still connected with C. Yes, I didn’t push through with the AWOL thing. Uhm, actually I did but I ended up going back to work on the 4th day. Why? Long story. 

Next?

I am in love with someone who makes each waking day a memorable one. If only I am God, I would make this man my lifetime partner. But since I’m not, I’d be this girl who’d just cherish everyday with this someone who equally reciprocates my love for him. I am blessed.

Anything else I’d like to share?

None for now. It’s almost 12 and I still have work tom. 

Good night children of God. 

Another Goodbye:(

After three months, I’m here again.

Well, a lot of things has happened but this post will be in connection with the previous one.

So yes..I got the job at my dream company. It’s a pretty tough job; a job for men as they say. Luckily, I am under a very good boss. Someone not as HARSH as those with my batchmates’ supervisors. We were not pressured the same way my batchmates are getting. But this month is a SICK MONTH for me. The once-a-year visit slash general checkup that I normally do before became six times since the beginning of June. And that doesn’t stop there, I’ll be back for another check up next year. Talk about weak system. Hohum. Am I going to die soon? I don’t know. Only HE knows. 

So, this, I guess, is a strong sign that I have to quit my job. It’s been a great three months for me. But the lifestyle I follow because of my current job has become a big threat for my health and so I came with the decision to quit. I’ve already talked it over with my parents and they were very supportive of my decision. They are also so concerned that they just want me to rest for now and if I want to pursue further studies on the next semester I’d be under their ’scholarship’ again. Hehehe But seriously, I’m touched.

Though excited that I’m going back to school, I’m real sad that I’ll be saying goodbye to people that became so close to me for the past three months. Saying goodbye has never been my forte. I’m still waiting for the right time to finally be able to tell everybody that this 30th would be my last day at work. I’ll surely miss everybody.  

Haay..

Please heal me Lord. 

SUCCESS!

SUCCESS!

Two weeks of training is finally over! I can’t contain myself for the wonderful experience and opportunity that God gave me.

This monday will mark the start of a great life for me and my family. Give me a year or two and I’ll be 4 positions up the current one. I can assure you.

Hey challenges, bring it on! LOL

I can’t thank you enough, oh Lord. Thanks for all the love!:)

My Blossoming Career

Here I am again with a new entry.

Oh well, this isn’t one of those emo-filled entries that I usually share.

This is just me dropping by to say thank you for those who really made an effort to post their comments. Very much appreciated guys. *hugs*

But I’m happy to share with you that although my lovelife isn’t great; my career is blossoming. I am now on my last step in getting my dream job.  Yey me!:)

I’ll finally be resigning from my current job but that should wait until I get my salary on the 15th. Talk about the need for money to pay my credit card bills. LOL

So I guess this will be all for now, I gotta study for our quiz tom. Weeh!:)

Night Everyone!

Crazy Little Thing called Love OST-Someday

This is from the movie “A Crazy Little Thing called Love”-my new fave! It really is a must watch! 

Just one hug please

Can someone hug me real tight?

Just for a minute or two. 

I just need some comfort. 

I’m back

I’m back! 

Actually, I shouldn’t be here anymore as I have promised myself that I’d be leaving all the hurt and pain here and move on with the help of my new outlet, Bloggie. You see, I already have a new site and it’s actually a big help for me. 

So, why am I here?

Uhm, I was just surprised because when I searched about diamondtome; 2 of the links google gave me is directed to this site. So ayun, namiss ko tuloy magsulat dito. Hehe:)

Pero yun nga, I have a new home now and so bye2 na muna here. I’ll visit this site once in a while though. 

Thanks for those who commented here. Alam ko wala masyado fans ‘tong site na to pero I’m happy to see that I actually have some readers. Hehe:)

Thanks again!

Ciao!:)

Goodbye to you

I lost myself through the course of searching for a true love. 

Looking back through my single days, I was a very happy person. I can easily make friends because I was the type of person who would not hesitate to start a conversation with anyone. (anyone doesn’t include those katakot-faced guys. sorry for stereotyping them as not safe to deal with and what not.)

I would often hear myself say, ‘Oh, close na tayo ha.’ And there, I get so many NFFs. (new found friends)

Before, it was all ME. I had plenty of time taking care of myself. Way way back before I met my previous bf, I busied myself into reinventing me. I lost about 8 kilos over the course, I had great hair. I was fairer than the present and I was more confident than ever. Though jealous with some of my friends who have boyfriends, I was not in a hurry to have one. I enjoyed getting courted. I enjoyed long walks to no-definite-destination kind of thing. I enjoyed great laughs til 3am over the phone. I enjoyed waking up with more than 20 msgs with all the pasweet quotes and morning greetings. I enjoyed getting kilig. It was fun. Getting 3 suitors at one point made me feel even more beautiful. 

In school, I felt intelligent. People would stick to me during quizzes or exams. My USER ex-bf would even ask me to text him the answers in the test but sorry nalang, ex na kita eh. hahaha 

I was really really talkative in class. There are countless times when our teachers would call my name or me and my seatmates name to share what we’re talking about. There was even one time when our teacher blurted out, ‘Ms *********, why don’t u get yourself up in the table and tell us what you and your friends are busy about?’ I would just say, ‘Ay, cge po…JOKE lang!’ And everyone will start laughing. (pero syempre, kaclose naman nmin ung teacher. It was not an oops moment.) 

There was also this IT teacher who keeps calling my name to recite. My friends would even comment, ‘crush ka ata nyan ba’ kasi every meeting nalang ako tinatawag. But I kind of liked him at one point kasi nafeel ko na may special attention sa akin. LOL special attention talaga eh noh? But I never had a fantasy of getting into a student-teacher relationship. And he already has a child so it was a BIG NO.

Wait ha. I just realized I have been talking a lot already. LOL

But my point here is, I miss who I was before. I miss great laughs with friends. I miss getting praises. I miss feeling beautiful. I miss feeling confident. I miss the attention. and I miss my attitude. 

I have completely changed. My focus shifted from me to him. I have been overly insecure, super duper selosa, overprotective and nagger (as he would say). 

I made myself my own stranger. I don’t know myself anymore. 

Last night, I seriously asked for space and time. I know we’ve been to a lot of breakups already but this time, I’m serious. I don’t want to know his whereabouts or who he is with in the office, I don’t want anything from him at the moment. I want a time alone. I want to find that old HAPPY me. 

And besides, I don’t want to be in a relationship na masasabi nya na mahal nya ako pero ok lang na mawala ako. Yes, he confirmed. I asked him that and he said yes. It was fair enough because I felt the same for him every time we fight. We were no longer a happy couple just like when we started out. It was sad and yes I cried real hard last night. But it was more of thinking what went wrong. Kung bakit bigla kaming nagbago. It was more on missing those happy moments with him. But now, I felt that the best solution to our problem is to let it all go.

I have to let go of all the bad experience I had with him. I had to let go of all the bad characters I have been made into during the length of our relationship. I have to let go of my fantasy of a happy family with him. I have to let go of all the expectations. 

I will definitely miss him and all the places we’ve been. Pero ayoko ng masaktan at makasakit pa. Nasakal ako sa knya dati, sinasakal ko sya ngayon. Di na tama. I have already decided. I have to let him go because I want him to be happy. I don’t care if his happiness won’t include me in it but at least I can assure myself that I was once his happiness. Di nya man aminin ngayon pero ramdam ko noon na pinasaya ko rin sya. 

So this is me saying Goodbye to you. 

Thanks for everything PANGET.

You’ll always have this place in my heart. 

Till next time.

Let’s both be happy, ok?

PS. I’m deeply sorry for all the trouble and hurt that I caused you. Ingat sa Thailand.

And for this site. I shall also say farewell. I’m starting all over again. I’ll be reinventing myself again. Thanks for being my outlet. Ciao!

I love you Lord

Haay. kalungkot lang. As in. Alam mo un? 

Haay. Lord, deserve ko ba to? Kadami man jan mag.uyab pero bakit ako man parati ang malas oi?

Lord, pwede favor nalang? Pwd ihelp mo nalang ako na makalimutan sya agad? Ayoko narn cge iyak. Gusto ko na po ulit maging happy ba. Pwd last Christmas nato na malungkot ako? Sad man din pala ung last 2 na pasko ko. Naalala ko lang, last2 year away kmi nun ng ex ko before him tas kami rin last year (although ok naman na kmi Dec 25. Dec 24 ung gnamean ko Lord. alam ko man na alam mo.) Pero un nga, lagi nalang man gud. Makadepress na gud.

Haay. Cge lang. Time heals all wounds. Balang araw tawanan ko nalang tong mga to. Kung bakit ako emo emohan ngayon.

Alam ko balang araw ipameet nyo rin po yung talagang para sa akin. May reason naman po kayo kung bkt kelangan ko maranasan lahat ng to db?

Pero Lord, favor naman. Pwd last nato na relationship na paglaruan lang ako? Hinayaan ko kasi na tumaba ako ba. Dumami pa gyud pimples ko. Kadepress naman. So next time Lord, kung di rin lang c John Lloyd Cruz bibigay nyo sa akin, bgyan nyo nalang po ako khit yang sobrang taba and kalevel sa akin na may pimples basta yang di ako lokohin.

Cge na oi. Ako lang malungkot dito while sya nagaenjoy. Haha kaloser ko sa paningin nya. pero cge lang noh. wala na rin ako pkialam.

Lord, magsimba po ako bukas promise pero wag nyo po ako ipaiyak please. I love you Lord. 

My side of the story

This isn’t a very merry Christmas for me.

While everybody is happy celebrating the birth of our Lord, I am in my room contemplating about how easy this is for one person while I’m having the worst feeling of all time. 

I thought I would have a lively Christmas with all the beautiful firework displays this year. But I was wrong. 

It would have been okay, the hell I care if I’ll be stuck here in a boring city pero sana di naman ako pinagmukhang tanga. May paepek2 pa sya na lowbat na, tapos pakunwari lasing na with all the paepek na wrong spelling2 sa text. Nagswear pa that he’s telling me the truth. Only to find out that he really wasn’t going home when he said he will. Tas after about 3 hours, ayan na nagising nalang ako sa tawag nya kasi nakokonsensya kc nawrong sent sya. Instead na for his mom, sa akin nasend, andun pa pala sya sa bhay ng friend nya and sabihin daw sa akin if nagtanong ako na 6:15 sya umuwi. So since nawrong sent na, nagsend uli ng, ‘di kc ko makakauwi kc lasing nko’. Oh really now? I know the reason why you had to send that second txt, kc nabwisit ka sa sarili mo kc nasend mo sakin. Db? 

Shit naman tlga oh. Sobrang saya ng pasko ko. Kelan mo pa ba ako ginagago? God, ilang beses na kita pinatawad. Tatlong beses mo na ako gcheat pero try ko naman na patawarin ka db? Sino na naman ba ngayon? Alam ko na lalake kasama mo kagabi pero I’m sure meron ka pang di sinasabi sa akin.

Haay, boys will always be boys. Cge lang, pakasaya ka sa pagkalalake mo. Karma nalang bahala sayo.

Nalungkot pa naman ako habang nagNonoche Buena kami, naisip ko 1 year na sa 26 since mkilala ka nila mama ko. Dapat masusundan ngayon. Dapat pupunta pa nga ako sa inyo bukas db tas sabay tayo uwi sa 27 pero di na mangyayari. Sa akin ka pa galit ngaun db? Nabasa ko na blog mo. Cge lang, pakasaya ka kung sang bar ka man ngaun. 

Kaya pala sobrang kuripot mo na sa akin. Halos ako nalang parati pero kapag sa barkada at sa opisina, andali lang sayo maglabas ng 2k. May iba ka na bang pinag.iipunan? Haay, cge lang. At least naranasan ko namang maging masaya sayo. Pero sana naorient mo ko dati na hindi ka talaga loyal sa mga gfs mo even before pa man ako nainlove sayo. Haay Lord.

Christmas Wish/Shopping List

Christmas is fast-approaching. And unlike others, I am not expecting any gift from anyone right now. For 22 years, I haven’t received anything from a godparent. Not that I don’t have one, I just haven’t met any of them. Yeah right, IT SUCKS! 

Gosh, now I want to be a kid again. Can there be a real Santa? I mean that Santa in red outfit with a red ’sack’ with all those gifts? Hahaha A day-dreamer. I know right.

So this Christmas, I’ll just be my very own Santa. But please, don’t give me the same body-type as his cause I am gaining the weight again. Nah, it’s Christmas time! I just can’t resist. Hahaha

Okay, so here’s the list of what I have already bought myself and what I have yet to buy for myself.

1. pants ( got 2 pairs already)

2. top ( bought 2)

3. sandals ( 1 LOVELY pair which I lily lily LOVE. LOL)

4. Longchamp bag ( will buy in HK. promise promise. please keep your promise, dear self)

5. Fitflop Electra in black ( will buy later or when I get to Manila. please be on sale)

6. Earrings (Planning to buy that one from UniSilver but I think P1100 is expensive for it’s brand. Will check Filigrenasia)

7. Diamondtome session (My pimples seem to have organized a ‘party’ on my face. Headache!)

8. Missha/Baviphat BB creams (#23 or Tea Tree Set respectively)

9. Missha Hot Burning or Cool fitting Body Gel (Desperate to be thin, eh? LOL)

10. Brazilian/MAX Slimming Coffee (Yes, I am desperate to be thin again. HAHA)

Gosh, where the hell am I getting the money for all these? Hahaha

But please be on sale FITFLOP! I need you to be on my feet before the year ends. 

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HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE!

Reality Bites

“The worst thing is loving someone when you know you shouldn’t anymore. It’s caring about someone, wondering how they are and what they’re up to when the truth is they’ve stopped wondering about you a long time ago. The worst thing is remembering every single detail of your relationship when he’s obviously long forgotten about you. The worst thing is missing him so much when he doesn’t even realize you’re gone, the worst thing is feeling the same as you ever did, knowing you shouldn’t, because he doesn’t anymore.”

3 kilos down

I’m back. 

Soooo…

As promised, I’d be sharing with you how much I lost in 6 days. (sorry for the late post. haven’t published this yesterday so I had to add 1 day.)

Andddddddddddddd…

It’s 3 kls! YEY ME!:) Yes, I’m 3 kilos lighter now compared to 6 days ago.

What have I been doing?

Nothing but eating less.

My average calorie intake for the 6 days would be about 600 calories A DAY. 

I still eat, yes. That’s one meal a day and I usually have it at dinner. WHY DINNER? Simply because I sleep late and I’m afraid that if I won’t, I’d binge on something in the end. So. DINNER.

I usually just have MILO in the morning. SKYFLAKES for lunch and RICE and VIAND for dinner. 

Soooo, there. That’s it for today. ADIOS!

Effort please.

From now on, I promise myself that I will stop giving my all to anybody. I will leave some love for myself. When I love, I give it my all; no reservations or whatsoever. And in return, I expect that I’d get some lovin’ back. YES, I do expect. Of course I would. I know that love should be unconditional but I am not God. (Thanks for loving me unconditionally, Lord. Please teach me to love the way you do.) I’m tired of doing everything for a person yet I won’t get the love that I deserve.

It’s getting into my nerves already. E-f-f-o-r-t, will you? 

HAHA But that is something I no longer expect from that person. I’m still good with what we have but I can no longer promise that I’d be the same. Not that I will just play around but just less effort from me. 

Oh well, I just pray that he gets the job he told me about this noon. He deserves to get out of our current company. He deserves more than what he’s getting. I am also prepared for the possibility that he’d forget about me when he’s already successful but I am not selfish. I’d be happy sooooo happy for me. Honestly. 

I just wish that he’d miss me months after the possible breakup. But I don’t expect that we’d end up with each other again. Really. Hehe

So before that time comes, I gotta beautify myself. There is no way I’m not getting my match. No plans of dying as an old maid. Hahaha (Sayang ang lahi noh! Hehe) But seriously, wag naman po Lord. I’m not praying for a perfect man nor the so-called Mr. Right, I pray that God gives me that person who’d feel perfect when I’m beside him. *wink*

ME-week starts NOW

It’s Monday. And I declare it, the start of ME-week. 

I’m very happy to say that I just got home from my dermatologist. Yes, you read it right, as early as this day I have done one of those things I mentioned on my previous blog which I want to have done within this week.

I got myself a dermabrasion session. Not only that, I’m on my fourth day of eating less. REAL LESS than my normal food intake. I know it’s not healthy but who cares? I only plan to do this for a week or two. I just want to lose at least 3 kilos and so far I am sooo doing well with this thing. I just worn this morning the old white shirt that I tried to fit but just wouldn’t fit me 2 weeks ago. How’s that, huh? 

Confidence-level, increased! OOOHH YEAH!

I will weigh myself tomorrow and I will let you know how much I lost in 5 days.

Ciao for now! 

I LOVE ME SOO MUCH!:)

Cause I LOVE ME. *wink*

I am starting to get tired already.

I’m tired of him making me feel jealous or worse..feel cheated.

I don’t know, but for the past few days; my trust for him dropped again. 

I feel that he’s not telling me everything. I feel that he likes the new girl at his work. I feel that he just denies these things. I don’t know.

I hate him for making me feel this way. I hate ME for thinking this way of him.

Am I just paranoid? I don’t know. 

But I promise, I’ll refrain from having these kind of thoughts. I will TRY to trust him. But one thing’s for sure, I’m tired of crying. So, I will just let him do anything his way.

I’ll just shield myself from getting hurt again. If he truly loves me, he’ll stay away from things or persons which/who will just tempt him to hurt me. 

I think I have to myself more now. I demand that I take care of myself. So, I gotta give myself more ME-time. I’m gonna start tomorrow.

Operation, PAGANDA!

I realized that I have taken myself forgranted since we became a couple. I have gained A LOT of weight. I haven’t had haircut for a while. I haven’t been painting my nails nor have I rewarded myself another dermabrasion session which I used to do before. 

So for this week, I got to do things for MYSELF.

I have to do at least 2 of these things. I’ll get back to writing when I already did. 

I LOVE ME. *supertighthug, self*